Thursday, September 29, 2005

THANKFULNESS AND ABUNDANCE

This morning I was blessed and thankful for words of another, whose loving energy, reminded again of the great abundance in my life. And once more, I give thanks to the Creator for all.

How often do you give thanks to the Creator for all that you have in your life? We often give thanks for the immediate things in our lives, but have you considered giving thanks to all the unseen forces that bring these things into your life. For example, we give thanks for our food, but do not thank Mother Earth for the soil and her minerals that give nourishments in your food, for the farmers who grew the food, those who picked the food, those who transported it the market, those in the market who make the enticing displays, or the thousands of other people and resources that provide us with our daily nourishment. This kind thankfulness should be extended to all that you have in your life, your clothes, furniture, appliances etc.

Do you remember to give thanks to the Creator for the sun, rain, wind, air, and water? We take all of these for granted, especially air. We breathe in and out with little thought, but if it were taken away we would not live. The same goes for water and sunlight. We taken so much for granted and forget that these things are so important in our lives.

We also need to give thanks for all our experiences in life, for each of these is a learning experience. When we can learn to give thanks for even the difficult times, we soon realise that they are not so difficult after all.

When we start to give thanks for all that we have in our lives we see how abundant our lives really are.

A few years ago, I read a book that instructed one to sit down and make a "list of abundance". In this list one was to write down 200 things that one was thankful for in one's life. I looked at it and thought, "200, wow, that is a lot," but when I started to make my list I found myself filling pages. I realised how truly rich and abundant my life was. For about a year after, at the end of each day I would sit down and write 20 things I was thankful for that day. As time went on, I no longer needed to make a list, for I found myself during the course of each day silently giving thanks for the many things in my life. Each night before I go to sleep I give thanks to the Creator for another beautiful day and the many blessings that day held. This exercise now has become part of my daily life and as a result my life is filled to overflowing with abundance and thankfulness.

I do not own many things. Most of my possessions would fill two suitcases. I do not own a car, a house and do not have a job, but my life is abundant and blessed in ways too numerous to count. This is true abundance.

If you do not feel and see this great abundance in your life, try the "list abundance". Once you do, you will see how truly blessed and rich your life really is.

Love and blessings,
Wawa Quilla

Saturday, September 24, 2005

SAYINGS

Navajo Proverb

I have been to the end of the Earth.
I have been to the end of the waters.
I have been to the end of the sky.
I have found none that are not my friends.



NOW at this MOMENT all is PREFECT.
Wawa Quilla

Friday, September 23, 2005

FREEWILL AND RESPONSIBILITY

The time has come for each of us to take responsibility for our actions. Over the years we have given our personal responsibility for actions away to someone else. Mostly, we have given away our responsibility away to the government. We have come to expect the government to take care of us from cradle to the grave. When ever something goes wrong in our lives we are very quick to point a finger to someone or something else. We have become a people of "if only". If only this or that or someone would have done something things would be different. Everyone is to blame but our selves. We do not want to take any responsibility for our actions. We want someone else to fix things for us. We have agreed to be a society of victims. As a result societies have now found themselves totally trapped and dictated to by governments.

The Creator has given us the gift of freewill, but we as a society have chosen to give this gift way. It now time for us to reclaim this gift and to break free of the trap we have created. It is now time for us to take back our responsibility for our lives. The use of this gift means that we have an infinity possibilities of choices. We just have to realise this and break free of our limited vision. We have to realise that there are no right or wrong decisions. Each decision is only the decision of that moment. The decision is not right or wrong it only a decision and as such can be easily changed with another decision. But, with the use of our freewill also comes responsibility. When we make use of our power of choice, we also have to accept totally the outcome of these choices. We cannot blame anyone or anything for choices that do not have the outcome we desired. For example, if I choose to go riding my motorcycle without a helmet and I fall and hurt myself. That is my choice and I have to accept the consequences. I do not need some law to tell me what I should do. That is my choice.

At this moment in time with hurricanes battering the shores of the US, as well as other natural calamities striking elsewhere in the world, and the changes that these are going to bring to the world, we are being given a chance (or maybe I should say, we are being forced) to reclaim our freewill. We can choose to don the victim mentality and blame others, or we can choose to create a new life for ourselves. One based on integrity and self-empowerment. It is no use blaming ourselves or anyone else for the predicament we have gotten ourselves into, let the past go. Now it the time for breaking free of the trap that holds you victim and to reclaim your power and your freedom of choice. By reclaiming your freedom of choice, you will see you have an infinite choice of possibilities. It is time to see the bright crystal light within yourself and to take back responsibility for your life. Are you ready to accept this challenge?

Love and blessings,

Wawa Quilla

COMMUNITY

Last week I had the opportunity to visit a friend's farm about an hours walk from the village of Machu Picchu. It was a beautiful walk following the railroad line. On one side the sacred river of Wilkamayu rushed on it way to meet the mighty Amazon and on the other side the majestic mountains reach to the heavens. My friend's eco-farm is nestled in a valley between two streams that feed the Wilkamayu River. On the farm there are avocado, orange, lemon and bananas trees, potatoes, lettuce, onions and other vegetables. All these are grown organically; the fruits of Pachamama, Mother Earth, grown lovingly. All around the gardens the tropical rainforest teams with life.

After a healthy lunch from the fruits of the earth, I sat on a raise of land deep within the rainforest. As I sat quietly observing all around me, I was shown that the forest is the Great Spirit's example of how a community should be. Within the forest all beings live in perfect harmony. All beings have a purpose, and although they are different, they all join together to create a healthy environment that is in balance. Every single creature, from the bacteria, fungus, small plants, trees, insects, animals, and birds contribute to the well-being of the forest. They are all needed for their expertise. Each being contributes to the wellness of the whole. Within the forest there is no discrimination, jealousy, competition, or animosity. There is only harmony.

We, the two-legged creatures of the Earth, need to follow the teachings of the forest. We need to bury our differences and come together, each with our expertise to create a community of one, like the forest. We have to stop competing with one another and relearn how to work together to create a world of harmony and peace. This is not as difficult as it would seem, all we have to do is realise we are all the same. We are all created from the same source. The source of Divine Love. When we can see beyond the physical and see the crystal love energy within each of us, then we can come together to build a place of love and harmony. At that time, we will then become a part of the whole and join in harmony with Nature and encompass the One with the Oneness of All.

Love and blessings,

Wawa Quilla

Saturday, September 10, 2005

FACING FEAR

In one of my last writings I mentioned some of the things I have seen about the future. I do not tell I all I have seen in dreams, meditations or ayahuasca visions. I have a gift or is it? What ever it is, is not important. It just is!

Several years ago when I began in earnest on this path to self, I would often visit Ato Girma, an Ethiopian shaman, with his house perched on a hill about 3 hours drive outside of Addis Ababa. In our talks and in his seeing, he would often ask me, "Why do you willingly want to follow this path?"

My reply was always, "Ato Girma, I feel I have to."

He would then look at me with his dark brown eyes and sadness on his face and say, "Following this path is both a blessing and a curse. You can still walk away." But I knew I could not.

At the time I thought I had a good idea of what Ato Girma was telling but it was not until I went to Marcahuasi, high in the Andean mountains, did I fully understand what he was saying. Marcahuasi is located in the Central Highlands of Peru and is a table mountain of about 3 sq. km and at an altitude of 4,200 m above sea level. It is an incredibly magical place with gigantic rock sculptures, made by Nature or man, who is to say. The magic of Marcahuasi began for me the moment I arrived. After I greeted the spirit of the mountain and asked permission to enter with an offering of tobacco, I heard a voice very clearly say to me, "We have been waiting a long time for you." I was taken aback, for why would the mountain be waiting for me?

Over the next several days my friends and I explored the sculptures scattered all around the top of the mountain. Many of these formations had messages for me. Most of those messages were greetings, encouragement and connecting to the energy of the place. The last night there we did a special ceremony that lasted the whole night. It was during this ceremony that a huge rock formation called the Rock of Humanity called to me. I went over and sat with my back against it. The rock took me into its heart and began to download great amounts of information to me. In the hour or more that I was there I saw the whole of this period of life on earth flash before me. I was shown all the horror we have committed in the name of civilization and saw what is coming. With a great stream of tears running down my face I asked, "Why do I have to see all of this?" The answer that came was, "You cannot go forward until you face all of this. You cannot have wisdom without facing the pain. This is the way it is." After that message I was also shown what will come when earth has been cleansed of all the darkness. As I sat by the fire later, I recalled Ato Girma's works and knew what he was talking about. I was not consumed with fear or anxiety about the future. I knew that this was the way it was. I knew I had to be a light of love in world of darkness. I had to stand solid like the mountains and hold the love energy. At times I feel great pain and sadness, but it is because people do not see and continue to run around reacting to the outside world.

I could give you details of my many visions but what would it create? More fear and anxiety over the future. What is to come will come; it is all destined to happen as it is supposed to. The moral of this story is that we each much face our fears and over come them. We must all come to that place of peace and tranquillity within us. We all have it. No one can show us these fears or face them for us. It is something each of us has to do on our own. We all know the way if only we would listen to ourselves and not the many voices clamouring to show us the way. This is a journey that only you can take and no guru or master can show you. It is a journey of great courage and fortitude. It is a journey of commitment and regardless of what is shown or experienced it must be faced. The dark side is only a mirror of the light. Fear is only a reaction to something that may or may not happen. Most fears are created by an outside stimulus, that if you look at it carefully, has nothing to do with your life at this moment. If you are not willing to face the darkness in those fears, you will never see the true light. You will never overcome the fear that resides inside of you, blocking the light that is within. Once the fear is faced and seen for what it truly is, a reaction, it will disappear. The light cannot shine until you come face to face with the darkness and put it aside. When you do that it no longer has a hold on you and the only thing left is the crystal essence of your being shining for all the world to see

Stop running and reacting! That is only fear. Sit and face that fear. Let the light within shine!

Love Blessings,
Wawa Quilla

AID TO FOCUSING INWARD

I have been taught a simple technique by the shamans I have been working with here in the Andes for directing our focus and intention inward. It is a simple technique but does require a bit of practise. When you are in a meditative state roll your eyes upward towards your third eye. The trick is to hold that position. It helps at the beginning to picture a golden dot in your third eye and to focus on the dot. Later it becomes easy to just roll your eyes up and hold the focus. Once you have mastered this little technique you will be amazed at what you will see.

Love and blessings,
Wawa Quilla

CHANGES

This past week has been an interesting one for me. The forces around me have been strong and they have been very insistent that I listen to what they are telling me. This is what they have been saying.

They are telling me that right now the forces of change are great. These changes are happening on two levels, so to speak, but that these two levels of changes are interlocked and really part of a whole. On one level the changes are in the physical world. This is very evident if one pays attention to the news and various other sources of information going around the Internet. We are seeing storms of great intensity, droughts, and fires, we are seeing plane crashes, we are seeing rips appear in the government control structure and we are seeing an increase in the global power struggle. I am being told that these changes are only the beginning and that frequency and intensity of these are increasing. I have been shown a black oozing mass flow from cracks in the earth and have been told to watch the dragon and bear (this I have told for many years but the message now is stronger). I am being told that this is only cleansing and purifying. But more importantly I am being told that it is happening so that we can see the illusion of the material world and that we need to focus on the inner not outer world. We are being given a chance to face our fears head on and to overcome them.

These physical changes are happening together with an intensification of the Wave of Consciousness flowing over the earth. I was told that the intensification started to on July21 of this year and at that time we moved into a new cycle of knowing. It is very important at this time that we still the metal chatter and go within. We are going to be experiencing many things that are going to help us clean our inner house but we have to pay attention. We have to be still and we have to eliminate the fear in our lives.

The changes on the physical and spiritual levels work hand in hand. The earth is being cleaned and so are we. Through the earth changes all the illusions of the material world are being striped aside and at the same time by witnessing these changes we are being directed to focus on what is real. We are being directed to change our focus from outer to inner. We are being directed in drastic ways to realize that all we see in not all there is. We are being directed to see that reality lies within. What lies within is a dynamic and powerful crystal of love. I have seen this crystal within. It is the most beautiful sight to behold as it radiates the energy of pure unconditional love. When one can see and feel this crystalline energy within themselves, all the outer things and happenings are no longer important. We see them for they are; an illusion of control and fear.

Change is happening, the pace is quickening, nothing will remain untouched. The Universe is unfolding. Go within for it is there that you will find love. That is the only answer you need. It is also the Divine responsibility of all of us to access this love and to hold this love energy in these times of change. It is those of us who know this energy that have to radiate it and let it flow to others. Many are awakening as the Wave flows over all and they need us to hold the energy for them as they learn to deal with it. By holding and radiating this energy others will feel it and respond to it.

There is nothing to fear, all is happening for a Divine purpose.

Love and blessings,
Wawa Quilla
(Written August 27, 2005)

HAVE FUN

Today I was sitting and gazing at the mountains, enjoying a beautiful mountain day with brilliant sunshine. My mind drifted in and out of the present. Some of what drifted in was the fact that so many adults take themselves so seriously. This becomes even more evident when one pays attentions to the news or reads websites like Rumour Mill News. So I want to a pose a question to you. When was the last time you let yourself totally and completely give in to having fun? Just enjoying a space of time with complete abandonment? My guess would be it's been a while. I would like to share with you some of my experiences over the last month while I was visiting my family in Canada.

I come from a large family and have several grown up nieces and nephews as well as several great-nieces and nephews. I love them all very dearly and we are very close. As I have been a gypsy for over 20 years I do not get to see them very often but when I do my time with all of them is very precious. One niece lives very near to her parents and her two kids come over often. JM is seven and is a Downs Syndrome and JW is four. These two kids think, and they are not far off, that I come to Canada just to play with them. We really do have the greatest time. I get on the floor with them build towers, race monster trucks, do puzzles, tumble, laugh and basically carry on like a kid. I love it and so do they. When I am playing with them, at their level not mine, I am a kid again and time, worries, cares and all else just totally disappears. The greatest part of this is that the rest of my family, those adults with all the worries and cares, do not think it is strange or weird that a fifty year old is there playing just as intensely and with the same abandon as the youngsters. My greatest joy was when JW would phone asking, if he could come and play. When was the last time a four year old called you and asked to come over to play? I also give the same attention and time to the teenagers. Only we do things with a little less abandon. But we still lay on the floor or in bed and talk about what is really important in their world or compare drawings or talk about their dreams, the night kind. We laugh and carry on like teenagers. They too phone and ask when I am coming over.

We as adults have forgotten how to have FUN! We are so serious about everything. These little star beings can teach us so much, especially to just enjoy ourselves in the moment. Their greatest gift is to show us to do what we feel like doing and not worry what others will think. They just do and enjoy it. So go out and dance in the rain celebrating the cleansing energy that it brings. Go skinny dipping in a cool mountain stream. Skip down the street because you are happy. Smile at strangers. Roll in the grass. Most of all laugh just because.

Every where I have roamed in the world, I have always found these star beings who keep me young and who remind me not to take things so seriously and to just have FUN.

Blessings,
Wawa Quilla
August 2005

THOUGHT

There is power and energy behind all our thoughts and thus words, but when we can get beyond the thought is where the power lies. That is where the essence of our being is. It is finding that place between the thoughts that we become free and connected to the essence that is All.

Through our social conditioning we are taught to think. But what really is that thinking process that we have been taught to be so valuable. It is a way of labelling things and with this labelling comes, judgement. We look at a situation or another’s actions and immediately pass judgement. We look at the situation of a person and we think in terms of good or bad or in our mind we have some running commentary. It is such a habit or conditioned response that often we do not even realize that we are doing it.

But when we actually look at the words or thoughts that we have, we can see that they are also our own interpretation of things. When we say that something or someone is good or bad, what does it really mean? When we use the word love or tree, do we all have the same image in mind? No, these words are all subjective. We each imagine them based on our personal experiences and conditioning. Therefore, what has one meaning for one has another meaning for someone else.

We are so busy thinking, labelling and judging that we are really cluttering up our attention. Eckhart Tolle, in Stillness Speaks, sums this up by saying,

“How easy it is for people to become trapped in their conceptual mind.

The human mind, in its desire to know, understand, and control mistakes opinions and viewpoints for the truth. It says: this is how it is. You have to be larger than thought to realize that however you interpret “your life” or someone else’s lie or behaviour, however you judge any situation, it is no more than a viewpoint, one of many possible perspectives. It is no more than a bundle of thoughts. But reality is one unified whole, in which all things are interwoven, where nothing exists in and by itself. Thinking fragments reality-it cuts it up into conceptual bits and pieces.

The thinking mind is a useful and powerful tool, but it is also limiting when it takes over your life completely, when you don’t realize that is only a small of aspect of the consciousness that you are:”

It is when we can get to that place where our thoughts do not dominate our lives that we can gain awareness. When we can listen with our eyes, and not label each and everything we see, that true is revealed. Within this state of attentiveness we discover truths and who we are. It is what Krishnamurti terms “the interval between thoughts” that we become freed from the conditioning that creates judgements. Krishnamurti says, “It is only when the mind is not giving continuity to thought, when it is still with the stillness that is not induced, that without causation – it is only then that there can be freedom from the background.” This is the place we are looking for, that stillness without thought. This is the state of heightened awareness. It is a place, were we are in tune with our higher selves and the inner voice within us. It is a time when we are truly in communication with the Divine spirit with in us. This is spiritualism. As Eckhart Tolle says, “Spiritual Awakening is awakening from the dream of thought.”

References
Krishnamurti, J. The Book of Life. Harper Collins, San Francisco 1995
Tolle, Eckhart. Stillness Speaks. Namaste Publishing, Vancouver 2003

Wawa Quilla

THE JOURNEY

The journey began the moment I was born.
Born in struggle,
Knowing it was a journey ALONE.
Knowing it was a journey of PURPOSE.
A journey of CONNECTION.
A journey destined to spread calm, love and light.

This journey commenced amidst struggle, strife and challenges.
A brother departed for another dimension.
A mother's grief lead to alcoholism.
A father's love strong but at a loss of what to do.
A younger brother filled with anger and pain.
But in the centre of the storm the voices calmed.
The moon, the stars, the trees, the animals were friends and allies.
Then in the teens a voice of divine purpose showing the way.

The way became clear.
The direction there.
The gypsy had arrived.
The four corners of Mother Earth beckoned.
The call was answered.
Africa, Egypt, India, the Middle East, the Far East, Europe,
the World.
Experiences gathered.
Love and light spread.
No questions asked.
The path was followed.

Gradually, gently and persistently the focused changed.
A divergent path was shown.
A path that required the ultimate test of faith.
A path revealed in the darkness of night,
in the dark bitter brew
in the Mother of All Plants,
Madre Ayahuasca.

This way required a break with all.
It shattered the illusion of career, security, social conditioning.
All vestiges of "normal".
It insisted on drastic action.
Facing the questions, fears, insecurities head on
a contract was terminated,
possessions were dispersed,
a bag was packed and an airline ticket was purchased.
A new destination awaited - Peru.

The land of mountains, llamas, panpipes, Incas, mystics,
Lake Titicaca and Machu Picchu.
Cusco, the centre of the Ican World.
Machu Picchu, the mystical ceremonial site high in the mountains.
These were the destinations.
But what to do there?
What to seek?

Absolute trust in a vision and a purpose lead the way.
Slowly the purpose strengthened.
Slowly the doors were presented.
Slowly the crystal heart opened.
Contact was made with the spirits.
The spirits of the Apus, Pachamama, Mama Quilla, the Cosmos,
the condor, the hummingbird, the plants, the trees and the wind.
A knowing and communing with the Oneness Of All things.

The journey was long.
The trust was strong.
A journey to the coming home.
Coming home to the connection with ALL.
Coming home to the true self, to the power within.
Coming home to the absolute knowing all was well.

The journey continues.
Destination -- where the spirit leads.


May each of you have the strength to follow the voice within.
Blessings Wawa Quilla

DIRECTING THE INNER UNIVERSE

"TEACHERS WHO OFFER YOU THE ULTIMATE ANSWERS DO NOT POSSESS THE ULTIMATE ANSWERS, FOR IF THEY DID, THEY WOULD KNOW THAT THE ULTIMATE ANSWERS CANNOT BE GIVEN, THEY CAN ONLY BE RECEIVED."
- From Jitterbug Perfume by Tom Robbins

"Many of my friends have asked what it is I am doing here in Peru. The following is my best attempt at an explanation. The spirit world and its workings are very simple but very difficult to explain from the perspective of the 3-D world.

The simple explanation is that I am expanding my mind and enlarging my soul/spirit by connecting to the world of spirit that is in all things. From the day I was born I have been connecting to the spirit world only I did not always see or understand it. But now I see clearly how my whole life experience has lead me to this moment. Now more than ever I know, without a doubt that everything happens for a reason. Our spirit self knows what it needs to do but only when we listen to it and have the courage to follow it, does it reveal itself in all of its beauty, magic and mystery. Each and every one of us have all this power within us but we have been conditioned from birth not to listen to the voice within. It is the conditioning that keeps us trapped and on the treadmill running endlessly pursuing outside gratification when really if we stopped, sat quietly preferably in Nature and listened we would hear the voice that tells us we are strong, powerful, beautiful, and a part of the oneness of all. In doing so our lives would change so drastically and so perfectly that we would wonder what took us so long to figure it out. Once a person has expanded the mind to accept all things and enlarged the soul to encompass all things, everything is simple, clear and easy. The balance and the beauty of all things are there to see, feel, and know. It is also there for us to use and command. I do not use the word command in the sense of ordering the Universe to do our biding but rather in the sense of asking with authority. The catch is that it cannot be taught or gleamed from outsides sources it only comes from within. All that anyone outside of yourself can do is guide you to ways of looking within. The rest is up to you. Also it must be used for the higher purpose and the good of all humanity, otherwise we unleash a monster. It is this monster that we have already unleashed into the world. It is now time for all of us to work and refocus our energies on manifesting the beauty and power of the soul purpose for all of humanity."


Love and Blessings,
Wawa Quilla

Thursday, September 08, 2005

HERE

Here,
But not here.
Physical,
But not physical.
Time, but no time.
Space, but no space.
Melding dimensions,
But no dimensions.
All changing,folding,
All ONE.

Wawa Quilla

Wednesday, September 07, 2005

Knowing

Words cannot describe,
Knowing we are all the same,
Knowing we indeed do create our reality.
Knowing we are worrying and fretting about nothing,
Knowing there really is nothing.
Knowing that seeing the nothing and knowing the nothing is the path.
Knowing we create our reality moment by moment is the knowledge.
Knowing we can change our reality individually and collectively is the power.
Knowing a small shift in perception, a focus on the NOW, not reacting to past emotional stimulus, focusing on the love within-that means love yourself first, and projecting your wish with a clear intention, all of these change you, the world, the Universe. It is time to graduate to becoming one with nothing and everything.

This is what I know.